There has been a process almost external to my machine
that has allowed me to stay in the not knowing,
the not doing,
the stillness and the nothingness
that comes when there is silence and emptiness.
I can sit with my machine and others
and feel this purification take place,
an emptying of my mind
like a pouring out and instead of grappling to fill it up again
with ideas or answers...
just to sit and be with nothing to say and nothing to feel…
just being is a form of purification
that is necessary to house the soul.
Following this emptying out
I am learning about waiting and only holding on to faith
that this empty space in me
will be filled with that which is intended for my soul’s growth.