In My Own Play...

 

D Shannon

 In my own play 

recently has come the experience 

of the third class of negative emotion 

that Ouspenksy outlines, 

those that we cannot stop, 

only observe when they come. 

It's helping me to understand better 

the second conscious shock - 

of the transformation of negative emotions 

because in these states the soul is aflame. 

And any leak or egoism 

will only serve to give expression to one's anguish. 

And then down we go. 

In these cases, 

it's becoming apparent 

that the only value in these states 

is the ultimate valuation and trust in God 

and all his servants. 

For what else could our sufferings 

be propelling us toward 

if the first shock is maintained. 

And so in ultimate friction and cleaved heart 

the smile and comfort of our father 

can overtake me 

and these pains 

can be transmuted into acceptance and grace, 

lightening the load of our creator, 

as Gurdjieff hints at in his writings.

~O

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