Friday, December 30, 2011

Hold On...

 

Hold On to Love....


There is so much love and still the machine in its unfinished state and ignorance thrashes about in unyielding willfulness and stubbornness demanding its place and imposing its conditions.  Like a tramp imposing itself on a royal king who loves it anyway.  It would be crazy to lose it over just one thing.

We have to hold onto it (Love) no matter what!  I am also seeing how much and to what extent people privately suffer.  I guess we are all silent sufferers.




That Which I Am



That Which I Am...

That which I am, has no name.
What once I was, I am no more.
What is this state? Of being, of becoming?
I have no rest, nor place for my head.
I am. And what I am is this.
It just is.


A Dialogue on Desire

 A Dialogue on Desire...

C: I would like to ask about encouraging others and fostering desire when we feel very emotional about something in the Work, and the Work is trying to pass this on from a feeling or desire into something more valuable for everyone or one person in particular.


J: I'm trying to learn to listen more, to hear people better, to not always be on my own agenda ...then words (or poems) jump into my head, clearly from somewhere much higher than normal ...I feel I encourage better from than place.




V: I have became very emotional recently, sitting down intentionally every day and making space for the higher to enter. A feeling about how to encourage desire in others has emerged. I read and re-read this quote from Marcus Aurelius many times: "Stop talking about what it is to be a good man. Be one." And I realized, if I can Be...if I can practice and become that very thing that I wish to encourage in others then few words are necessary...



C: Saint Theresa speaks of the soul being "en kindled." I love this image, like a flame setting alight...Sometimes the intellect en kindles/lights but everything becomes much more rapid with trust and the emotional center opens and when love arrives nothing can stop the en kindling.



S: One of the things I have verified is that a kind of purification must take place before the opening of the higher emotions going deeper into myself seeing the real boundaries I have built to protect myself but also to hinder myself from loving, seeing my fear and being ready to let go of it, trusting. The beginning of real 'faith'.

  
C: Also, to be true to ourselves, our essence...if we are intellectual we can share more in that way. I am emotional; it is natural for me to hug and be affectionate but we can use a little of each center too for balance.



V: Once the machine becomes the servant of the Soul then it might become more clear about what attributes we can share with the most effectiveness and Love.





 

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Renewing


Renewing the Ways we Feed the Soul...


This Sunday's meeting seems to have picked up where we left off last week.  Last week the topic leaned toward how to keep the machine from "taking the state".  This week we found ourselves asking ... where do we find the hydrogens to feed the state? We find ourselves in the moment ... Present ... and this state needs fuel to be sustained.  This question seems to come up often lately.

Just as one feeds the body food when it is hungry ... or else it gets weak and descends into negativity ... one must feed the inner world as well.  This leads to the lamb and wolf lying together,  for "now the soul needs the machine".

I'm reminded of the  example of one being hungry and being served boiled chicken.  Initially this is great because you're starving ... you're excited ... you have a meal ... this feeds you.  But if each meal you have for the next month is boiled chicken, quickly one will get complacent about the meal, ugh boiled chicken again?  They will eat it, and it will feed the instinctive center, but the level of hydrogens has changed since the first meal of boiled chicken.  So now we have many different recipes for chicken ... we don't always have to eat it boiled.

Being given this gift from the gods, we have a responsibility to our inner worlds ... and to each other's as well ... to continually renew our ways of feeding the Soul ... to sustain the state as long as possible.  


Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Honoring and Serving


Honoring and Serving...
When our souls fuse as One, it would seem that the body, being under the influence of the Divine Presence, and not wanting to be completely left out of the blissful state that the soul is enjoying, fades away with delight as much as possible.  It almost stops breathing and the intermittent sighs it dares to emit, are at the same time its own lamentations at failing to reach the place where the soul dwells, quiet and timid complaints because it feels left behind, and ecstatic exhalations that the soul –loving and generous- allows it to produce.
It is with these tender attempts to avoid interfering and become unperceived, that the creature begins its surrender to the almighty Love that is permeating the soul, and recognizing it has been courted and allured, starts willingly to honor and serve that Love. 

Invite Love


Invite Love...


When we enter into a new atmosphere our souls see the sun and the inner world recognizes completeness on anther scale. In other words, we die to the material within us and take off the robes appear naked again.

Accepting our soul and our nothingness we at last invite LOVE, it gives us wings. We invite spirit, see both eyes in the universe "within "and "above." We are no longer slaves to the body, but servants to God.
She longs and wishes to give this love to whomever wishes to abide with her. Love is above consciousness, and without love awakening is incomplete.

To see with the eyes of the soul is to recognize completeness within and without. Seeing together we form a "Holy alliance."


Sunday, December 25, 2011

Flowering




Flowering...

We are starting our flowering.  To me that is the perfect life.  When you look at an ordinary person, they live their life in procrastination.  The mechanics stop them from living.  One day, if somebody impartially examines my life, they will see that my mechanics (and other people's mechanics), my machine ... could never stop it.


A life can be microcosm(ed) into the perfect day.  We get up and we are born into the day.  As we are born into life, we bring our karma from other lives, as well as our karma from yesterday.  We then do what we have to do, or likewise, do not do what we have to do.  Wouldn't it be lovely to achieve all that you are supposed to achieve in a day (a life)?  Then you could go to sleep in peace.

It's like the complexities grow simpler.  You could almost say that life is moving from the complex to the simple.  As children, everything is simple, then we start to get complex.  Life is moving from the simple to the complex (death) ... and evolution is moving from the complex, back to the simple.



Merry Christmas!








 Merry Christmas!
 
When you are in a State of Grace, then and only then can the gods reach you. 
Our collective states could be compared to
"Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven."

~Mervyn Brady~

Friday, December 23, 2011

A Beautiful Road

 A Beautiful Road...



Awakening to the reality of one's soul is the most difficult task we can undertake in this world.

Our capacity to deal with the pain of life and sometimes each other is an amazing ingredient in this work.  To be able to transform negativity in ourselves or that directed towards us, causes an explosion in our being transcending mechanics.

We simply see what is.

Our understanding and appreciation of each other allows us to directly experience the soul.
In appreciation of this the higher worlds, where our souls are received send us gifts, beauty, peace, love and harmony. The mind/body will never understand this; it should always be one step behind.

We must remember not just to be Present, but to ask and add the ingredient of Love. It exists within us all, we are all the same. Our bodies, faces, features, etc. are an illusion dividing us.

This work is not for the fainthearted. We are building a beautiful road to God, so let us enjoy  this construction and be able to welcome the next set of new arrivals with pure hearts and pure intentions.


~C

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Preparation

 Preparation...
These are the things you must learn to swallow and seeing one’s own mechanics or features and how awfully they manifest are but a prelude of the Awakening Journey. To be Awake does not mean Machine Perfect – it means AWAKE.  That one will see things are they really are not as in a dream and the Angel must survive and prevail here. There are so many reason and fears to give up – that bears testimony to the fact that so so few of us endure the whole journey.

Perhaps you felt that when you awaken you will have no mechanics – You always will, but can you make them in their lunacy serve your Soul and your wish TO LIVE? You can learn to decrease how they stop you from being present.

These are the preparation we need to live in World 12 (the world of the Soul). And then you know a man who lives in World 12 and can observe how not I’s (thoughts/thinking) but PEOPLE try and put him to sleep or die.

You are in a world of I’s (thoughts) now that one day will grow into people with cunning and intelligence – You must prepare and be ready.



Passion and Desire

Passion and Desire...


How do we ignite desire in others?
How do we maintain passion for the work 
and fuel the desire for awakening?

I feel that perhaps what we can do is focus on the rhythm of our own soul, and when Eros strikes a beat in the drum of our eternal being, all we can do is surrender ourselves to it, be carried away and then share it with the others.  This inspired passion is what helps us create, write, paint, dance, love with abandon, give of ourselves fully, merge with the gods in ecstasy....What happens with a soul that is on fire? This passion and life force is infectious.  It has the power to awaken desire in another. It is like unleashing an invisible torrent of sparks that reaches other souls, increasing their inner flames. And then those souls in their turn, will do the same for others. We are the carriers of a sacred flame with the potential to light other hearts, to stir other souls towards passion, love and devotion.

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Listen...




 Listen...

Many of our conversations come back to the heart and desire.
But I find that to keep this desire steady and burning inside can be so hard at times.
Then I am reminded that this desire, is deeper and higher than what my creature thinks it loves and hates.
This desire is sacred.... and meant for the Soul. 

This desire is so immense that it can't be understood or measured.
This desire is so pure that it is invisible, hidden from the world.
This desire is sacred.... and meant for the Soul.
So when I despair, because I fear I have lost desire.
I will be very still... and listen for my Soul.

The Academy Retreat - Mexico - December, 2011



Dearest Beloved Souls, devoted students of Love...

Coming back from the Academy retreat in Mexico, I feel something ancient stirring in the depths of my soul... a desire to share with you...my com-padres...my soul mates...

I ask myself what is an Academy retreat?

To me,  it is a sacred in-gathering of souls connected by a golden thread laced over our hearts. This golden thread tugs at me and I rush to greet you like a lover who is meeting the beloved.   I can do nothing more than surrender to this mutual love. Thank God for it, for we need each other so in this wonderful play.

We gather from many parts of the globe, carrying the same flame in our hearts. Some of us travel far,  while others remain where we are, connected through our souls, holding the same flame.  Our eyes reflect the same tranquility and knowing, our consciousness speaks the same truths. Each one of us holds the same glance,  an echo of the same past.  Each smile is an imprint from our beloved teacher. Our hearts beat to the same rhythm, our breath exudes the same spirit of love. 

When we are together at a retreat, we form the sacred body of Love on earth with an exact counterpart supported by the angels in heaven.  We desire to be together, to merge and to grow. We are a like a group of conscious lovers, working in harmony, breathing in unison. Our spirit rises together and pierces through time. We merge with our masters and we are infused with a desire to serve and be of use to the higher. We are the pulsating wave of Love that carries us into the future with a consistent flow and precise aim. We are attuned. We are One. We become the light carriers and the light houses of Love. We forget our separateness, becoming one divine soul,  one compassionate heart ....all part of an eternal flame in God's domain.  

Where I begin, you complete me. Where I yearn, you answer my calling. Where I am open, you fill me. It is no longer I and You or Him and Her. It is Us and We and the ALL. No more separation. We enter a dawn of consciousness of union. My love can increase your love, Your heart can nurture mine. The beginning of my thought, is the ending of yours. My work becomes your celebration. My prayer becomes your surrender. 


We come together to pay homage to the great mystery that we have served for eons. We have been here before perhaps at different times, in different vessels. The understanding, the calling, the longing, always the same. The roles, the service, arranged by the gods in the same order. Every retreat we gather to be attuned once again. There is a fixing, an eliminating of loose parts, a tightening of the whole, so that we are stronger, more resolute. The sound that has played in our hearts for centuries can resound once again. So that we can become the bright beacons of light that is intended for us from the beginning of time. From the moment our divine sparks left our creator's exhale and until this very moment,  we are gathering and merging to serve and become Gods breath of Life. 

Coming back home from Mexico, I hear a voice in my heart.... "Forget all that is impermanent, for all our joy, and love resides int the Eternal One. Return to the source of your own being. All the answers are contained there."  Together, as one body and one divine heart, we can truly emerge into this miraculous new beginning....a destiny that awaits us as a school. 


I am eternally yours with Love and presence,


~F

Monday, December 19, 2011

Golden Egg



The Goose that Laid the Golden Egg...
 
 "A cottager and his wife had a Hen that laid a golden egg every day. They supposed that the Hen must contain a great lump of gold in its inside, and in order to get the gold they killed it. Having done so, they found to their surprise that the Hen differed in no respect from their other hens. The foolish pair, thus hoping to become rich all at once, deprived themselves of the gain of which they were assured day by day."


~Jean De La Fontaine Fable


The machine stays the same while the soul lays golden eggs of wisdom and self remembering.. one needs to cherish the growth of the soul.

Sunday, December 18, 2011

Immensity



 Immensity...

Can my Soul live without Love?  Can Love live without God?
A triad ... a perfect triad that can allow us to live this life in its completeness.

The possibilities of this path of Love are immense and infinite.
I am certain that there is a reason, bigger than what we think, for us to be here Together and share the immensity that comes from Love and understand what we need to understand in order for us to serve through Love in each present moment.

Collect and Remember

 Collect and Remember...

My Guiding "I" pointed out that all along 
what I am doing as a Man was
creating my own eternity. 
How glorious to realize 
my moments with each
one of you are immortal?  
This is why it is so important to be
"Lovely" to each other.

I invite you to come and loaf with me 
through the ions, and what I want from you
is what I can but give you.
Create the eternity you want now,
extract it from the mire of life, 
as a young girl collecting the fruit
of an orchard or flowers 
from a spring field.

Collect, and Remember.

Love
Mervyn

Friday, December 16, 2011

Miracles



Miracles...


We are in a place were miracles are happening.  I know sometimes it is hard to see growth or change in myself, especially when my machine feels stagnant or abandoned by God; then after, I see that the machine was being starved and my soul will be better off for it.  The pain and the fear that I have been forgotten and left behind on this path are pains that feel so real and hurt the most.  This is where faith in His Divine plan is all that can get "me" through.  I have come to realize that not only is Self- Remembering the greatest prayer but it also is the greatest act of faith, and of letting go.  Self- Remembering encompasses all the ways. 


Beautiful Soul

Beautiful Soul...

 
Beautiful Soul,
This is the night to dance with the Beloved!
This is the night to leave behind
all shame, guilt and fear.
Pick up your hair with a garland of light.
Take off your shoes and get ready to receive Him in your heart.
For He
Has never ceased to be close to you 

Thursday, December 15, 2011

The New Presence...

The New Presence...
The quieter we are, 
the more patient and open 
we are in our sadness's, 
the more deeply and serenely
the new presence 
can enter us...

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

The Aim


"The aim of the Work is straightforward and simple.  You are here; that is, your soul is present ---- or you are asleep.  

Being present goes against nature.  According to the Work, there are 48 laws of nature "designed" to keep us asleep.  Studying them and observing them operating in our lives will be part of the work.  However, it can not be emphasized enough that any knowledge we gain is with the sole intention of learning to be present, or remembering to re-connect with the soul, and staying there, no mater what the circumstances or friction we are having. 

One must decide for oneself if the long struggle is something you want to take on.   The Work is practical and it will be through your experimentation with dividing your attention and observing life that the school here will organically develop a direction.  

Your questions will come out of your experience, and this is the only way to do it.  This is not an intellectual study. It is an emotional and practical one of learning how the laws operate in our lives to keep us asleep and making efforts against them to stay present.  

As it is, we are slaves to the I's that constantly run through us; we are judging, we are scared, we are worried, we are in pain, we are the I's.  We must be what is OBSERVING the I's.  We must separate from them or we are them, we are identified." 


Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Wise Silence


The Wise Silence...

Higher states, and anything we wish to understand can be understood or answered by "The Teachers" (the Gods).  Anywhere we wish  to visit can be visited, and anyone we wish to meet can be found.

I have been a spectator of everything and nothing. The great "Wise Silence" had visited me again, and I knew I had been changed, again.  One is always different when one returns.

The Sun was completely gone now and everything had descended into the darkness of night, when all living things are refreshed.

For my soul there was no end place.

Perhaps I will be the "Wise Silent" answer to your next perplexing question, or the cause of your smile.

"Let him with ears Hear."

One thing is sure, keep  your eyes and ears peeled, I am out there in the Universe somewhere and You might be part of the next Adventure.

~Mervyn

Monday, December 12, 2011

The Door




The Door...


The door of the inner most fortress
finally unlocked.
Walking through a narrow pathway,
at times dark, at times lighted
by a distant shine.
After crossing the walls,
I got to the sea.
And then… I became the vastness
of the ocean…
the clouds and the morning mist…
the sun kissing the waves…
I became myself,
His image and reflection…



Between the Lines




Between The Lines...

Between the Lines,
 Those imperfect utterances
 which hide so much of our real wishes,
intentions and desires.
 There dwelling in isolation
 Often misunderstood
 The embrace, caress and desire of the Soul.
 Released now
 From the confines of the lines
 The Soul rushes forward into the Unknown Regions.
 Which contain limitless energy,
 Such intoxicating suggestions of delight.
 Now with trembling shyness
 We advance willingly
 Into the delicious dance
 Which has lurked nearby
 For so long.
 With incredible patience and Faith
 That one day
 The scenario would arrive
 Which would unleash
 Such Love, Tenderness and Energy.
 My Love

 ~Mervyn


Wednesday, December 7, 2011

The Bridge


The Bridge...


Long ago I realized there had to be something more, that I was participating in something far greater than previously imagined.  This gave a new meaning to a life which had lost its meaning.  We (man) have two natures corresponding to two currents flowing through us.  One from the highest source moving into form (outer world), the other from manifested form back to its source (God).  Realizing both creates our third aspect, the soul, a bridge between both worlds.  The tree, especially in winter, reminds me of this.  Feet planted on earth reaching for the heavens.




Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Perceive and Reveal



 Perceive and Reveal...

The soul brings a veil down on the facts of tomorrow.   
With this veil, which curtains future events … 
it tries to instruct man to live in today 
and ensures that in our future 
that the advancing soul 
has built for itself a new condition.

For the question and the answer are one.   
This is the way the soul 
is the perceiver
and revealer 
of truth.



Monday, December 5, 2011

Gratitude


Gratitude...

During our meeting on Saturday we shared 
our angles on Gratitude ...
We entered the state of Gratitude ... 
we were showered with Higher Energies ......

Gratitude is a state where, in the emptiness of the mind, there is the letting go of the chains of fear... 

There is the opening of all spaces in between cells that become filled with Light and Love ... there is Acceptance, Compassion ... Hope, Faith and Love.

In a state of Gratitude I Thank with Joy for what it is, and I know that there is not bad or good, right or wrong, it is just what it is ... there is complete acceptance of God's plan.

In a state of anticipated Gratitude I thank the Universe for the abundance that I am in, for the Love and Joy that I am.


In Gratitude I am Joy and Love, I am in God and God is in me.